Falling and Getting Up With God
I'd be lying if I didn't say I fell last week.
Like hard.
My mind had tried to defeat me.
Tuesday I was sitting in my dietician’s office in tears.
Not because of bad news or a new challenge to face. But, because of feelings of defeat.
I was feeling... A lot...
defeated.
Unworthy.
Unmotivated.
broken.
lonely.
hopeless.
And really scared for the future.
'Will it ever get better?"
"Am I even making progress?"
“Will it always feel THIS bad?"
All things i've asked countless times, they just hurt worse this day.
A year ago I promised myself no matter what my mind told me I would do whatever I had to do to fight. This means I may fall, you may fall, but we must get back up.
"I was pushed back and about to fall, but the Lord helped me. The Lord is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation." Psalm 118: 13-14
More importantly... Whenever/however/ Why-ever (making my own words here) we fall we must get back up WITH God. Every-time we get back up with Him we are walking close to Him.
In this moment of defeat in my dietician's office, she reminded me of some truth that is worth sharing:
* Some of the hardest things in life break us and make us the strongest people we’ve ever been.
It won't always feel like this. You are only becoming.
* We weren't made for the 'low and lonely.'
God has huge plans for us and specific purposes, we will get there.
AND we don't have to do any of it alone.
* Not everything has immediate benefits.
There's so much we can do today for ourselves 10 years and 10 days from now. Not everything that's done has to be urgent.
* Doing the action gets us a step closer to where we want to be.
You have to actually do it, not just think about doing it.
So friends...
Do not give up. Every time your mind knocks you down... get up with God.
"I cling to you; your strong right hand holds me securely." Psalm 63: 8.
Always remember: you're worth a lot more than your feelings tell you.
Do NOT give up.
Hold tight to God.
XOXO, Maggs
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